We're only taking turns, holding this world

The Fray-Trust Me

I guess this can be classified as one of my favorite songs, because it's been a few years now since I first heard it and I still haven't gotten sick of it.

Feeling so restless right now. Spending another Saturday night hitting the books. This cycle of studying over the weekend for a Monday test is getting really old.. three weekends in a row! But I'm so close. The final stretch before I'm free!

Putt putt

Played miniature golf today. It was actually fun.. especially because I hit a hole in one! :D So exciting! And then I hit another one in 2 shots. Wish I had a picture to document the awesomeness. :)

Weeping Woman

Give me a museum and I'll fill it.
-Pablo Picasso

Went to the VMFA to see the Picasso exhibit. I'm not too sure if I'm a fan.. in it's entirety, it evoked a strong sense of sadness in me. With revisions of the same technique in a given period, it was like he was trying to understand something about the human character, but couldn't quite grasp it. A pretty lonely thought. Not to mention pieces like Guernica. I guess my emotion is a testament to the power of art, and maybe I can appreciate it later. But right now, sad and depressing is not what I need.

The title of my post is the title of this painting.

B is for NOT GOOD ENOUGH

Somewhere in me, an Asian mom is incubating.

So I got my grade for histology. 95 on the final exam, but B as an overall class grade bc I messed up earlier in the semester.. due to laziness and random distractions in my life.

Honestly, I was mad! It was (and is still) killing me that I have this on my dental school record now. Yet everyone I've told is like "-______- Are you being serious.. chill the freak out. It is not the end of the world." And when it comes down to it, they're right. Plus, it could've been worse. I could have ended the semester with a C and gotten kicked out of the program, soooo.. yeah. Could have been A LOT worse.

So I am chalking it up to the Asian mom in me getting some training.. my imaginary kids better be getting 4.0s! Just kidding.. I will love them unconditionally..

Tousle me softly

Went all-out grocery shopping for the first time in a long time. I usually just pick up 1-2 items that I need at the moment when I go, but I've been eating so unhealthily lately bc I've been running out of food. It's so much easier to pick up dinner or eat random carbs lying around.. aka haven't gone out of sheer laziness!

I replaced a lot of items that I ran out of as well.. like this!

  

Just the shampoo. Also, I did not add the hearts but they're cute. Thanks Google! 

The best shampoo ever for people with thick, crazy hair! I do not have typical Asian stick-straight hair. It is really wavy and sometimes has a life of its own. I don't usually believe the hype in the front of the bottle (ie I was convinced that shampoos for curly hair vs straight hair were basically the same product in a different package) but this really does bring out that "tousled" look in my hair compared to other shampoos I've used. I love it! Except my hair is really long now, so I have to use a lot.. and run out of it faster..

Odd couple

Kimchi and cheese is honestly one of the best food combinations ever. Macaroni and cheese is not complete without a nice side of kimchi. Or in my case today, pizza! Just so many different ways to eat them together.

It's like trying to make sense of two very different people as bf/gf. At first, you're like "hmm.. i really don't get it," but then you see all the chemistry they have together and BAM! They're winning all kinds of cutest couple awards. And kimchi and cheese are definitely adorable.

Anyway. Done with histology for the rest of my life.. until dental boards? And now all I have to do is survive the next week.

Summer is just around the corner.

Sunday morning

Faith is not conjuring up, through an act of your will, a sense of certainty that something is going to happen. No, it is recognizing God's promise as an actual fact, believing it is true, rejoicing in the knowledge of that truth, and then simply resting because God said it.

-May 1 entry of Streams in the Desert

Did not make it to church today, and instead did a short devotional. I tend to do the former than the latter when I seek faith, because it is so hard to just let go of control and let God work in me. I like the phrase "actual fact". God's promise is an actual fact, just like we breathe in O2 molecules, or 2+2=4.

Histo all day! :( Ok, so tooth development is pretty crazy to learn about.. but even still, I can't wait until this class is officially over tomorrow!